Tuesday, January 1, 2013
2013 has arrived, so maybe I should have made some goals by this point. I've just been a little busy changing diapers, washing baby clothes, and cleaning up giant toddler messes. Oh, and snuggling. There's a lot of snuggling around here.
I like to participate in Ali Edwards' One Little Word challenge - but honestly I haven't come up with a perfect word for 2013. It turns out that while you're busy taking care of tiny babies, you don't worry so much about the big picture. My life is kind of about survival right now.
So, I'm thinking out loud here. Instead of definite resolutions... here are a few words I would like to dwell on in the coming year.
Joy. I am surprised often that even though I have desperately craved this life of mommyhood for most of my life, there are days when I am overwhelmed, frustrated, and just plain spent. It's hard to see them sometimes, but even when my days seem endless, there are so many beautiful little moments in each one. I need to make a conscious effort to pay attention to those moments more than the stressful ones.
Faith. I won't lie. 2012 was long and hard for us, with one disappointment after another, for a really long time. And it shook me. I want 2013 to be better - and if it is not, I want it to make me stronger in my faith this time instead.
Create. I did better with this last year; I have a fair number of projects that were completed - even while I was pregnant. Hoping that I am able to cross a lot of things off my to-do list this year, and I have a really huge dream to open an Etsy shop before long. We'll see what happens! I think this word can cover a broad range of things... in addition to my sewing/scrapbooking persuasion, I need to be more creative (and consistent) with my meal planning.
Music. I'm throwing this one in just for fun. I want to make sure we are singing and having dance parties regularly. I want to put my ten years of piano lessons to use and actually play every now and then, before my fingers forget everything I know. This means I can no longer use the piano as a catch-all and must keep it clear - so that I can play whenever I want.
Relax. I need to stop stressing out about everything. It's not a big deal if the house is a wreck. It's not the end of the world if we eat takeout five nights in a week (though it might be the end of our financial security). My kids are really little and need me to be focused on them, not the stuff. If I can stop worrying about things that don't really matter, I'm guessing our home will be more peaceful and we will all be happier for it.
This may not be a complete list of all my hopes for 2013, but it's a start at least. Since I have shared these thoughts here, maybe I will be more likely to follow through, right?
Do you have any goals or resolutions for the new year?